Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Belief.

I was listening to my Flyleaf cd today... one of their songs, "Cassie", is about the girl that got shot in Columbine. The chorus says, "Do you believe in God? Written on a bullet? Say yes to pull the trigger. And Cassie pulled the trigger."...... i used to love that song so much b/c i knew that i would say yes in a fraction of a second.... but today... years later.. when i heard it i just felt awkward. My answer would now be no..... but i wish it was still yes.

4 comments:

FHL_Always said...

Hmmm so I'm confused by this post. What are you saying?

What part did you cry at cause I was watching it too! Where she was telling him why his fashion is all about pain?

Kristi said...

First of all, given that situation, you don't know how you would truly respond.

Secondly, life is like the tide. It ebbs and flows. You have seasons of tremendous faith and seasons of struggle. That is how you grow. It's not a slap to God--it's a process of learning who he really is.

When we are young, we believe things easier. We haven't hit such hard times. Our outlook has more hope, and fewer fears. As we age, the realities of life hit us harder and we question everything. That's a good thing.

Naida, hon, you're growing!

Naida Lee said...

Kelsy.. you're funny. What i'm saying is... i used to believe in God SO strongly and have so much faith in that belief that i would have pulled the trigger in a millisecond. But over the past couple/few years i have lost grasp of my relationship at him.. turning him from a best friend to an acquaintance and so my belief and faith are no where near what they used to be. I know they say if you have faith the size of a mustard seed you can move mountains.. well.. that would be 1.0 mustard seeds... and i feel like right now i am at 0.000000000000000000000000000001 mustard seed. I've never moved a mountain though.. but i did get him to stop the rain for me once so i was probably at about 0.1 mustard seed. :)

as for crying during Ugly Betty... i don't even remember what part!! i was pms-ing SO bad! lol.. i think i cried at the part where the baby was born on the runway.. the part where he told her she was shallow.. and the end when he said he didn't want to learn about fashion, he wanted to learn about her. AWW.. haaha. i rarely watch that show but i LOVE it. do they have it on DVD? if so i should buy it.

Naida Lee said...

up there in the first paragraph i mean "relationship WITH him" not "relationship AT him".. my bad.
and my comment is longer than my post. hahaha.